why do u have to tell others about me!!!!

anw, to start this of, i've just received news that i am gonna be sent away for like don't know how many days. and the weirdest and the most STUPIDEST thing is that i still have no idea where i will be going, since it's suppose to be a surprise lol.

anw, today i went out with joee, liz, justin and japheth to eat at cathay - indulge! then went to minds cafe to play a game of BALDERDASH!!! it's really fun and hilarious! i still remember when we were suppose to come out with weird initials for S.P.O.O.F! liz came out with "Singapore Police Officers On Fire" haha, and mine was the most classic of all (by some people tsk!tsk!) "Speak Properly Old Oogoo Father!" hahaha. don't ask me why i came out with such weird and nonsensical answers cause i myself have no idea. it just came to my mind when it was read haha. spent almost 2 hours playing it so cool! i really hope that during cell chalet we will be able to play it, but after much thought, i realised that it will be quite impossible haha!

anw went to serangoon macs with japheth and liz just after the game to meet selwyn for supper. then we decided to stayover at his place since we have nothing to do the following day. went to a bar after that to chill till about 1am before we decided that we had enough of "fun" and then we head back to selwyn's house. we watched "3-minute meal" and i can tell you i laughed my toes off! hahaha it was really really funny and stupid of cos! just looking at how she cooks, i can tell you sometimes i feel guilty haha! (not that i follow all of her ways of cooking duh!)

after staying over, went to SOMA music school with liz and tim for their open house (for the last time, I DON'T OWN THAT SCHOOL!!!) and we attended the workshop on "How to produce an album" an also "The nuts and bolts of recording". learnt quite a couple of new stuff during the first workshop, but basically most of it was just simple common sense seriously. after that went to ps to chill till about 4 then we departed our own ways - tim went for gym, liz went camping, and i, just stayed at home and sleep! haha

later at night, went with a couple of JB to timbre to watch some gig and to just chill. it's a really wonderful experience and kinda romantic as well haha (says JB) but i kinda agree with him haha. watched a couple of jazz sets and i must say they are really good! and it's not like they are oldies who are playing but guess what! they are people who are like my age! haha! so talented man! haha. during one of the sets, one of the songs hit me real hard even though it wasn't ccm or what, but just listening to the lyrics and the way they arrange the song really makes me wonder about why are we living on this planet and not somewhere else? hmm. it was a really sad and emo song so much so that JB was at the back sobbing (awww)... but really it was.

spent a few hours there just chilling and soaking under the music till we decided that it was time to depart.

went home and straight into my room to just lie down again and ponder about what had happened during the start of this year till now, and i realised that it was a real roller coaster ride for me! why? for simple reasons, we are not perfect!

as i was pondering through what had happened and also after spending quality time talking to God, i've realised that the reason why i felt this way and why it happened is bcos of the way things have been revealed to us. i won't say who's in the right or who's in the wrong, but one thing for sure is that when we stand on His word, we will never fall!

talked to JB again on the phone cos he felt bored and lonely, didn't really crack much jokes like we always do, but we went to talk about more serious stuff. dead serious! we talk about things in which really questions ourselves on whether can "gravity" keep us together on this planet (not physical gravity duh!). maybe u guys might not understand (wait a minute! i don't think "you" are reading my blog right?) cos it's kinda.... i dunno haha.. anw, it was a question which came to JB's mind when i was telling him briefly how has my life been from the start of the year till now. and i was kinda stunned by it really haha. this thought never came to my mind before but kinda thinking about it, yea, are you sure this is what that's keeping us in this way? not that i'm trying to ponder about something else but really, is it?

it was really fun just talking to JB and just pouring out my emotions and stuff to him like a garbage bag haha. it really did help ALOT! thanks bro! =) i'm truly blessed to have JB around at times like this. He's words of encouragement really lightens up my spirit and my mood! "NO MORE THINKING AMOS!! CONCENTRATE! PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER! STAY STRONG! STAY STRONG!", "WHATEVER THAT HAS PASSED BY BE IT GOOD OR BAD, LET IT GO, LET GO OF ALL THESE FEARS!!"

so looking forward to cell chalet this thurs!



-and to you, i still care.

rebuild!

hey guys...decided to post this song which really stirs up a hunger in me to follow the builder all the way home... this song is called "rebuild!"


Watching the world with my highway eyes
Watching the world from the windows that I've known (ohh)
These mobile homes (ohh)

Loneliness was a friend of mine
But with you that's through and I feel home (ohh)
Away from home (ohh)
Away from home
Away from home

Ohh-aay-ohh we're the regeneration
Ohh-aay-ohh with time to kill
Ohh-aay-ohh we're the regeneration
Ohh-aay-ohh rebuild! rebuild!

You lit a fire in the pouring rain
But there's so many voices
Ohh! I get so cold! (ohh)

The city lights and the midnight train
I hate to say it but I get caught letting go (ohh)
Of the things i know (ohh)

Do not conform to this
Do not conform

Every life comes with a broken heart
Dying here to be made whole
We are the lost souls with the second start
Following the builder home
There's a temple I've found in the strangest parts
Where the stones are built of souls
Where the builder himself has promised,
"Love, I'm never going to let you go!"


-He is the only way, the only truth, and the only life to save us all! Jesus, I live for You! =)

the big issue...

God we praise You! We praise You when we are in the mountain, we praise You when we are in the valley, we praise You no matter what we go through, we praise You when the sun is shining and we praise You when the rain is falling, we praise You when we are surrounded by people and when we stand alone on the battlefield in our schools or workplaces waiting to see revival come, we praise You everyday; monday, tuesday, wednesday, thursday, friday, saturday, sunday God we praise You!

Luke 8:40-56 talks about a dead girl and a sick woman. a woman with an "issue" that would cause many people to give up what they are hoping for. she was minding her own business and then one day, this issue happened. i can easily relate this to our lives when there are so many times we are doing what we are supposed to do when an issue happened. issue that are good for us or issues which are just negative in every form. issue after issue. when all of a sudden we are not surrounded by anyone but it's just us (loneliness)..

this woman was walking along the road because she knew that Jesus was there and something stood between this issue and the miracle that she was expecting for to happen. Luke 8:46-48

we have issues in our lives whether we like it or not. for we are living in a world full of broken-hearted people that do not know the love of Christ like we do. and we can't let the things happen stop you from pushing through the miracle and you can't let anything that people say or do push you from that miracle.. let me tell you one thing: Jesus is on the other side of the crowd waiting for you and He is gonna help you through every single bit that you are facing, so if you can just push through and see that Jesus is on the other side waiting for you always, that issue will not be there anymore!

i had one desire and a longing for in mind... and that's to change the world that we are living in today! but it won't be long before I see a corridor with lockers on the left and lockers on the right with all of my friend's faces and names in it and I tell you what! my promise to all of you guys who are reading this is that i'm gonna pray for you day after day whether you like it or not... take away that issue that you are facing, that away that barrier which is blocking you from receiving the full glory of Jesus Christ your Saviour, take away that wall which is always holding you back from doing the things that you have always dream of! i pray that in Jesus' name you will be able to find God's amazing and loving peace every single day!

don't let the crowd stand between you and the miracle from Jesus Christ, just push through! just push through! whether we are on top of the mountain, or at the bottom of the valley, JESUS IS WORTHY OF ALL OF OUR PRAISES!!! that's my God people, that's Jesus, my Saviour! :)

-amen! take care guys! :)

send me!

In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord seated on a throne, high and exalted, and the trian of his robe filled the temple. Above him were seraphs, each with six wings: With two wings they covered their faces, with two they covered their feet, and with two they were flying. And they were calling to one another: "Holy, holy, holy is the Lord Almighty; the whole earth is full of his glory." At the sound of their voices the doorposts and thresholds shook and the temple was filled with smoke. "Woe to me!" I cried. "I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the Lord Almighty." Then one of the seraphs flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar. With it he touched my mouth and said, "See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for." Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?" And I said, "Here am I. Send me!"

Promises...

Singing all of Your promises won't let go of me
(All of Your promises won't let go of me)
Singing all of Your promises won't let go of me
(All of Your promises won't let go of me)

I've surrendered my life to Your ways
I have learned what it means to obey
Jesus, my heart has been changed by You
I am walking the path that You have made
I am seeking the truth everyday
Jesus, my heart has been changed by You

I couldn't walk Your way if I tried
Cause Your love is better than life

The sun's shining bright and it just won't set
Cause Your love is alive and it lights my step
My heart is amazed everyday to the next
Your joy overtakes and I can't forget about it

Whoa oh oh Whoa oh oh
I can't forget about it!
Whoa oh oh Whoa oh oh
I can't forget about it

surrender all

"surrender all, surrender all, i'm DEAD to SIN, ALIVE WITHIN!"

these 10 words really struck me real hard when i was having my own personal time with my Saviour.. it really spoke to me so deeply that when everytime i think of these 10 words, i just couldn't help but to tell God, "God i really need You in my life, I'm giving up everything that's holding me back and I'm going to surrender everything to You, EVERYTHING!!!"

What does it really mean to surrender? This was the first question which came to my mind when g told me that i had to give up everything that i had in my life.. surrender means to give up what you have, it could be your dreams, ambitions, love for someone, family, friends and the list goes on and on.... but what do we really have to give up? for a moment when all these came to my mind i thought that i was about to lose everything which i had and i know that it definitely wasn't what i had in mind! why? why? why? why can't i go? why can't i? You told me to be ready and here i am, saying over and over again "Lord, I'm ready now! I'm ready now! I'm ready now! Do what You will! Do what You will!" the thought of being ready for anything that comes my way really scares me at first but i know that i'm brought into the light and even though i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, i need not fear for my GOD is with me and He will always be... He will never leave me nor forsake me nor will He turn His back away from me! Just hearing Him telling me all these really stirs up a hunger deep inside to know Him more and say "God! that's You that i worship! that's You that i adore! that's You that i love! you are WORTHY Lord! so WORTHY!"

just hearing my Saviour gently guiding me to the ways of righteousness really warms my heart cos i know that when life comes to a dead end for me, there will a see the light of true eternity!

"Father, i surrender all that i have to You. mold me, shape me and make me the person whom You've wanted me to be. Lord i'm not gonna think about what happened but i'm just gonna focus my eyes to You, focus to You Lord! Barricade the road that goes to nowhere, grace me with Your clear revelation for i have chosen the true road to somewhere!"

i love You! =)

i'm ready now!!

Hey guys, it has been a while since i last blogged.. so sorry for those who have been waiting anxiously to hear about what has been going on during the hols and stuff.. I will update all of them soon xp

OK! so it has been a good and awesome holiday for me i could say... God's presence really manifested in my life and others as well as we went for the junior camp, and followed by the MARS retreat! :) in conclusion, God is really awesome and amazing!

experienced alot of challenging stuff during the past few days but i wanna thank God for really bringing me through every single part of it even though i was so worn out and tired about it but God was really there with me all the time, and amazingly, He brought me through out of it!! Amen and now i'm completely free from anything that is weighing me down during the past few days!! so happy about it haha :)

OK so here's this piece that held me through every single bit of my life and it constantly reminds me that God is really watching over me and I'm so ready for what God wants me to do yup! so here it goes:

Come like You promised You would
I want to surrender for good
I know that I need You
And I don't want to keep living life alone

So take my heart and make it new
And make it true and make it like You
Take my hands, I lift them high
They're Yours and not mine to do
Do what You will, do what You will
Do what You will

I feel like a blind man in Your sight
I know that I'm wicked in Your eyes
So wash me and make me shine like Your Son
I want to tell everyone that You're the only One

I'm ready now! I'm ready now!
I'm ready now! (Do what You will)
I'm ready now! I'm ready now!
I'm ready now! (Do what You will)


- yup so that's about it haha! every single word that is there really spoke to me deeply and I know that I AM READY!