Tuesday, March 18, 2008

for the hope that burns in your eyes

you remind me of a time when we were so alive, do you remember that? do you remember that?

Saturday, March 8, 2008

why do u have to tell others about me!!!!

anw, to start this of, i've just received news that i am gonna be sent away for like don't know how many days. and the weirdest and the most STUPIDEST thing is that i still have no idea where i will be going, since it's suppose to be a surprise lol.

anw, today i went out with joee, liz, justin and japheth to eat at cathay - indulge! then went to minds cafe to play a game of BALDERDASH!!! it's really fun and hilarious! i still remember when we were suppose to come out with weird initials for S.P.O.O.F! liz came out with "Singapore Police Officers On Fire" haha, and mine was the most classic of all (by some people tsk!tsk!) "Speak Properly Old Oogoo Father!" hahaha. don't ask me why i came out with such weird and nonsensical answers cause i myself have no idea. it just came to my mind when it was read haha. spent almost 2 hours playing it so cool! i really hope that during cell chalet we will be able to play it, but after much thought, i realised that it will be quite impossible haha!

anw went to serangoon macs with japheth and liz just after the game to meet selwyn for supper. then we decided to stayover at his place since we have nothing to do the following day. went to a bar after that to chill till about 1am before we decided that we had enough of "fun" and then we head back to selwyn's house. we watched "3-minute meal" and i can tell you i laughed my toes off! hahaha it was really really funny and stupid of cos! just looking at how she cooks, i can tell you sometimes i feel guilty haha! (not that i follow all of her ways of cooking duh!)

after staying over, went to SOMA music school with liz and tim for their open house (for the last time, I DON'T OWN THAT SCHOOL!!!) and we attended the workshop on "How to produce an album" an also "The nuts and bolts of recording". learnt quite a couple of new stuff during the first workshop, but basically most of it was just simple common sense seriously. after that went to ps to chill till about 4 then we departed our own ways - tim went for gym, liz went camping, and i, just stayed at home and sleep! haha

later at night, went with a couple of JB to timbre to watch some gig and to just chill. it's a really wonderful experience and kinda romantic as well haha (says JB) but i kinda agree with him haha. watched a couple of jazz sets and i must say they are really good! and it's not like they are oldies who are playing but guess what! they are people who are like my age! haha! so talented man! haha. during one of the sets, one of the songs hit me real hard even though it wasn't ccm or what, but just listening to the lyrics and the way they arrange the song really makes me wonder about why are we living on this planet and not somewhere else? hmm. it was a really sad and emo song so much so that JB was at the back sobbing (awww)... but really it was.

spent a few hours there just chilling and soaking under the music till we decided that it was time to depart.

went home and straight into my room to just lie down again and ponder about what had happened during the start of this year till now, and i realised that it was a real roller coaster ride for me! why? for simple reasons, we are not perfect!

as i was pondering through what had happened and also after spending quality time talking to God, i've realised that the reason why i felt this way and why it happened is bcos of the way things have been revealed to us. i won't say who's in the right or who's in the wrong, but one thing for sure is that when we stand on His word, we will never fall!

talked to JB again on the phone cos he felt bored and lonely, didn't really crack much jokes like we always do, but we went to talk about more serious stuff. dead serious! we talk about things in which really questions ourselves on whether can "gravity" keep us together on this planet (not physical gravity duh!). maybe u guys might not understand (wait a minute! i don't think "you" are reading my blog right?) cos it's kinda.... i dunno haha.. anw, it was a question which came to JB's mind when i was telling him briefly how has my life been from the start of the year till now. and i was kinda stunned by it really haha. this thought never came to my mind before but kinda thinking about it, yea, are you sure this is what that's keeping us in this way? not that i'm trying to ponder about something else but really, is it?

it was really fun just talking to JB and just pouring out my emotions and stuff to him like a garbage bag haha. it really did help ALOT! thanks bro! =) i'm truly blessed to have JB around at times like this. He's words of encouragement really lightens up my spirit and my mood! "NO MORE THINKING AMOS!! CONCENTRATE! PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER! STAY STRONG! STAY STRONG!", "WHATEVER THAT HAS PASSED BY BE IT GOOD OR BAD, LET IT GO, LET GO OF ALL THESE FEARS!!"

so looking forward to cell chalet this thurs!



-and to you, i still care.